Amidst Business

I got a job at this tutoring place and it's week one. It's been a bit of a challenge because I'm not used to tutoring 7 kids at one time, plus they're elementary school students. I realize that I don't EVER want to be an elementary school teacher. How do they do it?! Oh, the little terrors. But within the three hours I spend with them, I get to know them and experience momentary glimpses into their minds and souls. Those are the moments worth the hours of lesson planning and commuting. I know that this is the task before me now and I should do my best. As I drive to work, I get uber motivated and excited about the day. But by the end of the three hours, I leave work with a headache. I feel inadequate and know that I haven't done my best because I'm just not passionate about math. It's all physically draining for now, but I'm sure there is a lesson to be learned and I can't wait to discover that...

Speaking of what is to come, I had lunch with Diane today and realized that I think about the future a lot. I've been this way my entire life - always thinking of the future. I look forward to growing old, experiencing more, learning everyday and gaining wisdom through it all. Being happy in the 'now' or even thinking about the 'now' is something I struggle with. Even when I do think about the 'now', it's in relation to the future. I've always just thought that there is so much more in the future. I think I need to retouch upon the 'being joyful in all circumstances' lesson.

Have Internet

As Dan mentioned in his nice comment, I do now have internet, so here I am posting. Hmm... where to begin...

Some random points, happenings, thoughts I've had since my last post:

• I feel that I've had my share of graduations to hold me over until next year, possibly the next. (Thank you to everyone who came to mine even though it was quite hot)
  
• I like pulling grass and the feeling when a piece of grass comes out perfectly smooth (without being torn - do you know what I mean?). It feels refreshing.
  
• I feel overwhelmed with having to figure out what I'm supposed to with the rest of my life. I'm getting tired of parents telling me to go to law school or be a teacher (because that's the best job for a girl).
• Hmm, I feel a lot.
• I heart Amos Lee. He makes me want to cry (in a good way).
• Ecclesiastes was a depressing book to read; at least the end was to the point.
  
• It's quite hot in Lake Elsinore.
• People think they're in their living rooms when they go to the cinema in the Inland Empire. Mon and I watched Mr. & Mrs. Smith. The two people on Mon's left kept repeating lines. The family of three on my left laughed hysterically at EVERYTHING, which led to snorting at times. The family also proceeded to add their own commentary and read signs out loud. Mon and I were blown away; by the end we just laughed.
• I need to get a job (Charlotte: background chorus please).
  

Well, I can't think of anything else to write for now. I'm sorry it's nothing fantastic or profound. Perhaps I need to get back in the hang of blogging.

For now, let's be happy that we all exist and smile about the little joys that come our way.