I got a job at this tutoring place and it's week one. It's been a bit of a challenge because I'm not used to tutoring 7 kids at one time, plus they're elementary school students. I realize that I don't EVER want to be an elementary school teacher. How do they do it?! Oh, the little terrors. But within the three hours I spend with them, I get to know them and experience momentary glimpses into their minds and souls. Those are the moments worth the hours of lesson planning and commuting. I know that this is the task before me now and I should do my best. As I drive to work, I get uber motivated and excited about the day. But by the end of the three hours, I leave work with a headache. I feel inadequate and know that I haven't done my best because I'm just not passionate about math. It's all physically draining for now, but I'm sure there is a lesson to be learned and I can't wait to discover that...
Speaking of what is to come, I had lunch with Diane today and realized that I think about the future a lot. I've been this way my entire life - always thinking of the future. I look forward to growing old, experiencing more, learning everyday and gaining wisdom through it all. Being happy in the 'now' or even thinking about the 'now' is something I struggle with. Even when I do think about the 'now', it's in relation to the future. I've always just thought that there is so much more in the future. I think I need to retouch upon the 'being joyful in all circumstances' lesson.
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OMG!!!! that's EXACTLY how feel! the future thing! i too ALWAYS think about the future. my entire life i have been! and i don't think about the "now" enough..and when i do...it's about the future! i mentioned this in a blog a little while back. and i think that is why we like that song "blessed be your name" so much...because we want to be joyful in all conditions....
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