Selling my soul

I've been putting off this public relations project for a long time. Months. My first deadline was April. Then, my second deadline was before I leave for Korea.

After returning from Korea, I had hoped that this project would magically and wonderfully disappear, but of course, it did not. The real reason why I didn't want to work on this project was because it's a public relations fluff piece for a program that I don't agree with. JJ has warned me about this: "You know Liu, you're going to have to do things you don't like and don't agree with at this office... It's just the way it goes. I have to do it all the time, and it just makes me work harder on our other programs." JJ does get caught up in it way more than me simply because he does more politicking. I guess it's not that bad... I've been here for over a couple of years and this is the first time where I've felt forced to do something I don't agree with. I think JJ's been protecting me.

Anyway, back to this project. So, Steve finally gave me a REAL deadline of the end of August. I procrastinated and now today, I hate myself. I hate having to only write about the positive aspects of a program when I can only see the negative facets.

I'm working for the man.
Today's one of those days when I really question how long I can last in this place and I find myself thinking about South Africa a lot.