Feelings/Good

“You’re emotionally retarded,” Johny says.

I think it’s true. I know very well what I think. I have opinions, thoughts and can express them. Knowing, acknowledging and expressing what I feel is a bit trickier. Most of the time, people around me are telling me how I feel and I appreciate them for that, but I wonder how much is really true. I believe most of it is true, but as I’m delving deeper into my own thoughts and emotions lately, I’m discovering a new facet of me that is both scary and freeing. I’m hopeful for what is to come.
I’m pretty convinced March is going to be a good month for the following reasons:

• “G” Necklace: Some time last year or a couple of years ago, I saw this necklace with the letter “G” from an old typewriter at the farmer’s market and thought it was absolutely perfect. A couple of months ago, I couldn’t find it and haven’t been able to find it since. I was quite sad about this and started my journey into denial. Then, I found it buried in a purse on Saturday, the first day of March. I know it’s silly, but it made me feel better.


• Brain Fix: hopefully, I’ll be able to rest better and not be so emotionally retarded.


• No More Tutor: I finally quit. So now, my Saturdays are completely free.


• Light, Okapi and Flowers: Irwin’s light exhibit at MOCA leaves in April, so I need to get my fill this month. My zoo pass ends this month, so I’m going to squeeze in a few more visits. I haven’t been in such a long time. Since I’ll get to stay in San Diego during the weekends, I plan on going to the farmer’s market more often. I really enjoy the energy and watching people at the market. Plus, the flowers are so pretty.


• Easter: It’s my favorite. Death, Resurrection and new life! It’s so exciting.