At the movie theater

me: I wonder why that one light shines brighter than the others.
Mon: That light has its life together and knows what it's doing. It knows its purpose.

Forever Young

Mon and I watched "Young@Heart" tonight. It was delightful. Compelling story and fun characters. Plus, all the singing!

I think old people have way more fun than young people.

Happy Earth Day!

Pleasant surprise of the day:
Paul Oh's "Happy Earth Day" phone call.

So, are you out planting a tree?
No, I'm lying in bed.

This makes me sad.

SAN DIEGO (CNS) - A disabled transient was beaten to death with his own crutch by another man in downtown San Diego's Columbia neighborhood, police said today.

The suspect is at large. The motive is a mystery at this hour.

Shuffle

It's hit or miss with shuffle. I either end up skipping every song or being continuously pleasantly surprised with every song. I had a good shuffle morning.

I started the farmer's market this morning with "Good Day Sunshine" which made me smile. And then the following:

• "Atlantic" - Thrice
• "Everloving" - Moby
• "Shimmeshawabble" - New Orleans Rhythm Kings
• "Breakdown" - Mos Def ft. Talib Kweli
• "When I'm Sixty-Four" - The Beatles
• "Limp" - Fiona Apple
• an etude (I don't remember the name) - Chopin
• "For What It's Worth" - Buffalo Springfield
• "Oh Lately It's So Quiet" - Ok Go
• "Bad Sun" - The Bravery

By the end of "Bad Sun", I had picked up everything I wanted and was ready to leave. I love it when stuff like that happens. Perfect timing.

Now, off to spend some time in the sun at the beach and catch up on reading before I pick up Kris from the airport. We haven't had a date night in over two weeks. It's been too long.

The Rapist

"Therapists rape your mind." - Johny said to me before my first session. Knowing I have a more-than-average (and truthfully, irrational) fear of getting raped, he still said this. What a friend...

Anywho, it turns out I'm pretty okay. I convinced the therapist I didn't need medication because yoga makes me happy. She agreed I didn't need to take meds, so that made me happy. The first couple of times, I felt like I was crazier than I thought. Now, I don't think I'm as crazy, or... I'm just the appropriate amount of crazy. It's manageable craziness.

We talked about my parents. It's amazing how much our parents really shape us. It makes me absolutely terrified to have children. Although, I am thankful for my parents. I think the things I've realized through therapy will help our family be healthy. I sure hope so. It's freeing because I feel less burdened, yet it's scary because it's new territory. Hmm, I don't think I make any sense. You can ask me about it if you want and I'll try to do a better job of explaining.

My therapist says I need to go with my "gut feeling". What is that? I think I'm missing a link somewhere. She says I probably learned to not discern/acknowledge my feelings as a coping mechanism. I still don't fully understand that either. I'll have to let that one marinate.

Overall, I think therapy was a good thing. It's made me a little more aware and hopefully, I can work through issues and grow.

'08 will indeed be great.

Headache

"That girl has to get a concussion to finally sleep well." - JJ

Unfortunately, "that girl" is me. I had a mild concussion last night. I feel mildly retarted. Actually, I feel like a complete fool. There's something about falling, and especially hitting one's head that really injures the ego.